So much has changed in the last month it is hard to know where to begin! Mickey and I were shocked, stunned, wowed by some news we received on October 20. It turns out that, against all odds, we are pregnant! It is a thrill we thought we would never know ... our little miracle child, who is the size of a green olive, is due mid-June.
This news is tempered with sadness. We have to put our adoption on hold. Our agency wants at least one year between children in the family, which I completely understand. A newborn needs so much attention and an adopted child has needs which must be met immediately. The Little Monkey will come along later than we expected and he will have a sibling here waiting to love him. I know it is difficult to understand unless you have been through the adoption journey yourself but I will try to explain the grief we have felt, are feeling and will probably continue to feel. The only way I can try to explain it is like this: if you were carrying twins and a week before delivery, you lose one of them. You are thrilled beyond words for the miracle that you have but at the same time you are grieving for the child you have lost. We have carried our little monkey in our hearts for almost two years. It is a crazy mixed up feeling - I'm sure my hormones only compound the situation.
Now that the dust has settled and the shock is beginning to wear off, I have moved past the feeling of "what kind of cruel joke is this?" to the realization that Mickey and I are incredibly blessed! Pregnancy and child birth is an incredible experience. Adoption is a beautiful journey that makes you a stronger, better prepared parent. One is not better than the other, they are both miracles in their own right as the end result is a beautiful child! How lucky are we that we will have the opportunity to experience both!
I'm not really sure where our blog will go from here. This site was meant to track our adoption journey. We are taking a slight detour but isn't that the way life goes? We will continue to post the progress of this new surprise .... so continue to tune in.
xo Erin and Mickey
Sunday, November 2, 2008
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6 comments:
CONGRATUATIONS!
Both of you are truly blessed. Treasure each exciting moment in your new adventure.
Your bundle of joy will prepare both of you for your future addition to your family.
See u at Xmas,
Mary C & Diana
Oh I am just thrilled for you both! and yet the sadness you feel is so heartfelt. Just think of putting your child on hold for right now...your little monkey is still waiting to come home! and now you have double the fun to look forward to! and man they'll be so close when they are adults!
double blessing!
marie
Great and exciting news. You sure have an exciting life. Hope all goes well for you. Take care of yourself. We will follow your blog. Do you get a year off like us?
Sandy and Tom
Oh. My. God.
I am soooo excited for you both, what wonderful news. Your lil' monkey will be still waiting for you and soon you'll have double trouble!
Congratulations! Take care of your self and that lil "green olive"
With much love,
Rach xxx
Congratulations Erin, Blessed people have blessings come to them everyday. I am so happy for you and your husband. It was so nice to see you this summer. Take really good care of yourself sweetie, enjoy every moment of the next few months. I am sending lots of love and good vibes your way. Your mum's (and yours) cousin, Bernie
Congratulations!!! I cannot think of two more deserving people for the miracle that you both have in your lives now! Your lil monkey will hopefully have a playmate! :)
You will be brilliant parents and I wish you countless blessings and lots of love!!
:) Carla
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